right to the point,today is a bad day!!
I don't know how much more i can take i'm not sure how many times i can allow myself to cry,more so get my hopes up,thinking "this month is it" WHY cant i just get it in my head that,im not going to be pregnant?? i know i'm very negative rignt now..but im tired of being optimistic i'm tired of being happy for everybody else....i know i know that's selfish but...i swear on everything this has weakened me.
For two years i have tried to be in good spirits,optimistic but i tell you now i have been weak on my knees praying to god that i can just have ONE child...just one!!
I guess TTC is bringing out sides of me,that i never knew i had,maybe i need to give up?? i don't want to turn into a grouch,i don't want to be negative and i really honestly want to be happy for my family,and friends and most of all my TMP family.
I finally have found a place,were i am excepted,and the women there are so,i mean beyond supportive and i can only think..negative. for my TMP i deeply apologize.
+*+*my current status+*+*
cd 23-9 dpo
-slight headache
-crampish
-drop temp
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
Hi Bri,
ReplyDeleteI have a lot of respect for ladies like yourself who have been doing the hard yards. It is so hard as the months tick by and still the same result... there is nothing so deflating than seeing a temp drop, blank stick and then finally AF. :-( It hurts every time and no matter much we talk ourselves into believe it will be different or we'll be detached, it doesn't work.
I find myself all so frustrated when someone comes along and just falls pregnant the first month they try. They will never understand how hard it is to test and test again and go through all the negative thought patterns etc. If they do it again they'll think it is oh so easy because it was last time. It is so deflating...
I haven't read your whole story yet but have you seen a doc?
-hugs-
Just know that you are not alone...
Just wanted to give you a big (((hug)))
ReplyDeletethanks for the hugs and well wishes ladies,i have been to the doctor and have only been tested for PCOS,and was put on clomid.
ReplyDeleteI'm waiting my insurance yo change in may and will be looking to find a new doctor,for some more test..maybe even IUI